Wednesday 14 August 2019
My heads taken over today reminding me that I’m still not 100% control of my life. Frustration is what I’m feeling as I have been doing everything thing right !! Right, so my mind is in overdrive I didn’t have any MTea yesterday Incase there was gluten, I just had a coffee to be social it’s something that I just don’t want to make a fuss about.
I was in traffic bumper to bumper as there had been a tragic accident maybe this could be the reason just over concentrating.
My head hurts today, is this the universe reminding me not to get ahead of myself that I still have a long way to go, is it punishing me for putting myself out there, facing my fears regaining control in my life, who knows it isn’t easy, I have to realise that I have had this illness for so many years at least 12 so it’s still a long road to recovery, that even though there are days that I feel like I’m unbreakable that these feelings can come back.
This is the beauty of this life and how lucky I am, timing is amazing and even though my head is pounding I’m feeling relief almost immediately. I have just had my fortnightly appointment with my Chiro Little Sprouts who have been on this journey with me for the last few years, this appointment just confirmed why I have this cranial head ache, I was so proud of myself yesterday after last week taking back control of my life this was one of my triggers that if I didn’t face this or acknowledge the matter I was never going to move forward, let me tell you it isn’t easy it’s really hard, so don’t think I wasn’t scared as I was, I knew though deep down I had to do what is right for me personally and for my family.
No one can do this for you, you have to do this on your own that feeling of gaining this is confirmation of what I’m feeling now, empowered to know that I am in control, yes I can still feel pain, this is minimal for the end result of what lies ahead of me for the future.
I’m so excited that I can and have options for where I want to be, how I want my career to unfold, I want others to know that you just have to keep searching for what is right for you as a person.
The sun is shining, I’m enjoying what is the now, the crisp air the enjoyment of layers and feeling cozy at the same time. Yes I still have the pain in the side of my head I’m not going to let this take over my day, I’m just going to cruise through, I’m in the process of getting my car fixed so today I’m catching a bus to pick up a loan car, I have an interesting conversation with a lady who resides not far from where I wait, I love having a chat to anyone it was like walking down memory lane catching the bus, as I worked for the bus industry for 8 years, quite a chunk of my work life, lots of life lessons growing up having such fond memories of my work life with the Bus Company, working along some of the Bus Drivers that took me to School as a child.
Getting back to my head ache which is definitely easing, funny how quick you forget the pain they cause, Chiro confirmed that for me to release the stuck emotions that of course there will be that pressure and pain, so that frustration lifted almost immediately.